will you touch my heart?

How Much I Love You

I do not know when exactly  love you
but I know right now, I really adore you
I do not know why I love you
but I know I’m so addicted to you

I do not know why every time I look at you
I was so fascinated
I do not know why every time I hear your wind’s roar and waves
I was so stunned
I do not know why every time I feel your wind and water on my skin
I was so lost on it

every time I come to you,
nothing is visible except the beauty
I feel nothing except feeling
free
relax
peace
like I’ve come to the boundary horizon of skyline
like asking “Is this heaven?”
like recharging my body’s energy
like feeling  ”this is where I belong”
like reminding me that life is a gift from God that is so beautiful and meaningful

always positive

I believe that everyone has strengths that they have in themselves. but, most of people can not see it. they think too much about what others think of themselves. they forget that they are who build their own universe that is in their minds. and the fact most of the other people who live around them are the ones who more often bad-minded about anything. therefore, in my opinion the most important thing to solve this problem is always think positive about everything thing, because this is the key to the spaciousness of mind in your own life. also always trying to become a better person every day. and choose the people around you who can always give a good effect on your self because the positivity of mind that they have. last, be personal with positivity thoughts you have, can be a good effect for the people who live around you.

be your positive self. :))

read making energy

” I am an ordinary girl from a town which lies on the edge of the capital, the country of Indonesia. I really love to read, read anything. read make me have another perspective on things. I especially love books that can inspire me, books that can provide positive energy for me. since there is a miracle that happened in my life, I believe that nothing is impossible in this world if we want it and really try to get it. remember, that whatever can we achieve, certainly with the permission of Allah. whatever we want in our life, we always have to pray to Allah. not only at the end of our efforts, but at the beginning, middle, and end of the work we do. i believe God is hearing the prayers of His servant prayed. “

campur aduk rasa. :)

aku sedang merasa menyukai seorang teman lelaki dikelasku saat ini.
aku ga tau pasti kenapa, bisa suka sama dia. karena dia ga terlalu banyak bicara, atau karena apa. entahlah. but i feel that he is someone special for me. :’)

aku beraniin diri kemarin sms dia. aku sms dia yg bunyinya gini,
“galang (sebut aja galang), lagi apa lang?..”

terus malem kemarin kita sempet sms-an beberapa kali. mungkin sekitar 20-an sms.
aku seneng udah bisa beraniin diri duluan, walau aku gatau gimana semua ini akan tertuju. :’
mungkin aku sama dia bisa jadi menjauh hubungannya, stuck kayak gini, atau justru bisa jadi lebih deket.
entahlah, setidaknya aku belajar satu hal dari pengalaman ini.
aku telah mencoba, apapun hasilnya. apapun hasilnya, aku yakin itu yang terbaik yang Allah kasih ke aku. :))

Allah memberi apa yang kamu butuh, bukan yang kamu inginkan. :))

for you, hero

naif sekali diri ini, punya ekspektasi yang terlalu tinggi, yang tak sesuai dengan realita.
naif. bodoh.
dia tak punya rasa lebih terhadapmu, kecuali teman saja.

untukmu dia seperti bintang, begitu indah dipandang, tapi tak akan pernah dapat kau
sentuh dan miliki.
seperti gelembung yang coba kau raih, yang justru akan pecah ketika kau
menyentuhnya, tak akan pernah bisa kau simpan.
seperti mencoba menggenggam angin, tak ada yang kau dapat selain sia-sia.
seperti lukisan di museum yang hanya dapat kau nikmati keindahannya, tapi sampai
kapanpun dia tak akan pernah memilihmu. 

Bukan kamu, tapi dia yang lain.
semua salahku, bukan salahmu.
tak pernah kau memintaku untuk mengisi otakku dengan angan tentang dirimu,
angan memilikimu, angan bersamamu.

semua itu salahku, salahku.
salahku yang telah terperangkap dalam pancaran pesonamu, auramu yang begitu
indah.

maaf.
sejuta maaf yang dapat kukatakan.
maaf aku telah menyayangimu, dan meminta pada-Nya kelak kau berjodoh denganku.
aku tak mau begitu, tapi inilah yang ada dalam hati dan anganku.
kudoakan yang terbaik untukmu selalu.

for you, my hero